good morning..

haloo haloo.....

i'm in the office freakin early today cos i went to pick sayang from the bus station at pwtc at 6am!!
lol....so i'm in a pretty cheery mood today, despite the aching feeling you get in your body just before you fall sick....yea..i'm feeling it...uh-oh.....

first thing i thought as i arrived was..those rats better not be insight as i enter the office..so i purposely opened the door real loud to shoo them away...and...i've got a surprise for them later this evening..hehehe...i bought that pest glue to trap them....muahaha...
hey, dun blame me...they keep leaving their droppings everywhere...urgh....yucky....

then i have to blast my songs cos the aircond isn't switched on yet, plus the light bulbs leaves a sound that goes eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee in your ears....so the music helps a little...just a little...i still hear it and i'm freakin hot here....i'm hot......hahahah......

anyway...hopefully the rest of the day remains like this, as i have to be in bangsar at 12pm for some bunting setup...and if our pay is in, Jocelyn and i are going shopping.....yay.....oh oh oh....and i forgot to mention i'm getting a new hp!! woohoo.....well, nothing so fancy like blackberry or iphone but at least its better than my almost broken apart phone i currently have....

YAY!!!!! thats what i'm getting!!!

hehe...okies...till we next meet...ciaoz....

a day full of thoughts...

everyday is a new day...as some people say...but what happens to those who still lives in their painful past, would be my question...

as i woke up considering early this morning..i took my time to get out of bed...dressed up and got ready for work is my normal routine..coming downstairs to an empty home seems to be an ordinary thing as everyone else would have left to send sis to work...and i actually like the silence of being home alone..something that i have always wanted, which was to live on my own....

got to work and had some breakfast..and as i was about to start working..thoughts flooded through my mind about years, months, days and hours ago...how life has changed incidences after incidences...how i have personally changed in certain ways better and in many ways not...

realising that when i care for a person too much, i very frequently get hurt...but when i don't then i'm considered heartless...is there anyone in this lifetime who appreciates the existence of someone in their lives so much and loves that person so much more than what they are given, and yet not expect anything in return...this i doubt ever exists...everyone, including myself, would every once in awhile become a lil bit selfish and expects a return for what they do in some way...be it just noticing and being appreciated, or even a hug that can mean a thousand words, its somehow important....

i suppose its human nature to feel this way...and i have never once denied the fact that i am not perfect, no one is..only God....and to even have people in our lives who cares for us would be a bonus compared to people who doesn't have anyone at all....i just wish that the people whom i care for felt the same...

i've learned a lesson, the hard way..that if i want to show or give someone love, don't expect anything in return..give grace and have a heart of giving..but unconditionally and without any expectations...sad to say, i won't be able to the same with everyone in my life, cos some just don't deserve it all.....

*YAWN...........*

i'm sleepy.........

i'm tired.............

i'm lifeless............

and i'm not looking forward to tonight and the next 4 days.................


p/s: and i'm clueless about the bloody action plan i have to submit on monday!!!

cockroach!!

hahaha.....lissa said she saw the same cockroach that was in my room last, in her's this morning...and she fell out of bed when she saw it....just thinking about it makes me laugh so hard cos i can actually imagine her falling off....so bad right....hahahha.....

but.......sayang is leaving tomorrow night....sob....away from me for 4 days, or a week..he can't decide...sigh.............gonna miss him.....which means there will be temporary singlehood until he comes back....oh no...who's gonna entertain me when i can't sleep.....sob....oh well, he needs the break...and my only wish is for him to get there and come back safe....

sooo...tonight is movie night...watching karate kid....hopefully some quality time before he leaves...

sobs...bye...

disappointed..

what a way to end the day...

i text dad earlier, asking what was for dinner..with an obvious reason that i'm having dinner with the family...he doesn't reply and not long after, mum called and asked what time i'd be done..only cos they wanted to have dinner near lissa's office, knowing that i won't drive that far and get stuck in the jam....so they went ahead without me...

then i had plans of watching a movie tonight with sayang but to find that i wasn't able to pay online for some reason..tried getting help from lissa but couldn't get thru either...aargh..i was so frustrated!! end up having to watch it tomorrow instead...so i made reservations anyway...

i drove home, feeling hungry and lousy having the thought of eating alone..so stopped by at jaya grocer, i grabbed a medium sized pack of sushi and a bottle of bliss yogurt drink...headed home with an idea that i was gonna enjoy a simple dinner while watching tv...OMG......you wouldn't have been able to guess what mum told me........yea, the tv could not be turned on, spoilt..........blub* my bubble burst....

so doesn't it explains the blog title today? sigh.....i'm hoping that a game of football and some time spent with my baby can change my mood a lil....

walking zombie..

hey world....

i can hardly keep my eyes open...slept at about 6.30am...as i twitted, when the world is waking up to go to work, i'm attempting or should i say struggling to fall asleep....what seems to be the problem man....

can't say its a habit, cos its getting harder and harder to fall asleep each time...but i know also its not insomnia.....grr....

so i'm entertaining myself with the beat i oh so love...name of the song is..'i'm in miami beach' by david guetta....and i started dancing in the office...hmmm i actually miss clubbing..not the drinking part but the dancing part...love it when i hear nothing but the music, and get absorbed into my own world...but of cos most of the time with a kick of booze helps la....lol.....

i'm thinking of going tonight...zouk is ladies night!! no cover charge....anyone??

woohoo.....

Football Frenzy..

i went to al-safa for the game tonight...spain won 2-0 scored by david villa...........finally...

then there was this weird drunk indian guy who came to support the team and brought along a drum with him....he stood in the middle of the road banging it after the first goal and enjoyed the attention everyone gave him, even if it was all annoyed stares...when he finally sat down, he was still banging it...i was like we're trying to watch a game here man!!....oh did i mention he rams his bike every time he rides by...omg...i was so irritated i wanted to slap him!!....

hmm....but...good game overall...

and again i can't sleep....woot.......

life as it is....

events is not as easy as i thought it was...having to chase for 500k target and yet not being productive now...scary....no commision if i continue at this pace....need to get off my ass!!

having really close colleague friends who have now become some important besties in my life is great...finally some chinese friends...LOL....whatever that means.....i now have a female shoulder to cry on...hahaha....

home situation remains the same...from the disaster that occured in January till now, there have yet to be improvements between me and dad....i know, i know...i have to work on it...but i can't see myself being 'nice' anymore....sigh...

and landed myself someone whom i hope would last this time after being taken advantage of and getting hurt time and time again before....seriously a different personality that i find myself changing for in persuit of happiness...this time its a no hanky-panky thing, no touchy-touchy, or smoochy-smoochy.....a complete opposite to my past...but i'm happier cos then i know i can trust him...yay...

so a brief to wat has been happening since i last blogged...of cos there is no trace of it but looking forward to anew beginning....

~p/s: Lissaaaaaa i'm back......

BACK....

alooo.....

i'm back renewed and refreshed....deleted all the previous post to clear my past...starting anew...

hoping that this time it would be last..hehe....

but Kimberley is back....!!! woohoo.....